|
Post by malkieh on Feb 11, 2010 16:15:52 GMT -5
I am so excited! But my family is freaking out at the amount of books I have!!
One book has almost 3000 pages!!
|
|
|
Post by malkieh on Feb 7, 2010 22:23:20 GMT -5
I became frum my Junior year in High school, and that was no easy feat considering that my mother is so anti-frum. My home had always been conservative, going to shul on shabbos and yom tovim. We lit shabbos candles, and had a small meal.
So my junior year I went on the march of the living, and something inside of me changed. I saw girls and boys from my group going off as couples holding hands and making out. And these frum women women, well atleast women in skirts swaying back and forth probably reading tehillim. At first I started reading about orthodoxy. I was afraid to go to my local sheliach, because everyone in my community said he was this nutty man that danced outside of his house. I knew my mother would be less than thrilled at the idea of me becoming frum, so I came back from the march of the living and told her that I was a vegetarian, because of cruelty to animals so she accepted that and left me alone. Plus I started dressing tznius, and she assumed that I was older and maturing and wanted to dress nicer and left me alone. It was not until college that I met Chabad and it changed my life. B"H I had a normal sheliach that did not push things on me and told me to take my time and not take on too much to fast.
B"H when I left my ex I had a wonderful therapist, and she helped me work through many things. Plus I guess I was luckier than others, my ex and I made amends and we actually talk more than we did the entire marriage. When I had flashbacks she helped me work through them.
|
|
|
Post by malkieh on Feb 6, 2010 23:09:37 GMT -5
I know what you mean, I was the adult in my family. It makes things very difficult growing up when the child is an adult.
Because my mom's family was considered the "poor" family, when i wanted to do more I was always told that I could not do anything and that I should stop being "stupid."
Of course I did not listen to them, and became orthodox and married what I thought was a wonderful man. He unfortunately followed in their footsteps and forced me to drop out of college. It was not until I left him with my three children in tow, that I went back to college on my own and succeeded.
I think i realized through my own children that through my successes they grew and healed from the abuse of my ex. You need to look at the positives in your life, and heal.
We all have something in our past that defines us, it's if we let control us. B"H I got into nursing school this year, I start this february. I am now married to a wonderful man that treats me with respect, and tells me how wonderful I am. B"H I never dreamed I would be so lucky.
When I decided to apply for nursing school, my family did the "you would not make a good nurse it's a hard job, why not go for something easier." I proved them wrong, and it was not until I answered certain questions that they believed me.
I am not sure why I still feel the need to prove them wrong, but I have a husband that hugs me and tells me I am wonderful and I focus on that. Also on how my kids laugh that I have more homework than they do!
|
|
|
Post by malkieh on Feb 1, 2010 23:49:02 GMT -5
they want a particular color galaxy blue and it has to be landau brand. My best bet is to purchase two pants and sew them into a skirt..
|
|
|
Post by malkieh on Jan 21, 2010 22:34:12 GMT -5
|
|
|
Post by malkieh on Jan 14, 2010 23:20:20 GMT -5
i read a bit ahead this week, and it felt like I was the only one answering or explaining answers.
So at one point the teacher said, "anyone except me." I was embarrassed, because usually I am very quiet, it was just exciting to actually understand the questions and get them right!
After that I was quiet, and it threw me off a bit but it's ok
I know that it's exciting and I look forward to more.
|
|
|
Post by malkieh on Jan 11, 2010 22:08:21 GMT -5
Ever since I applied to nursing school I feel like I am constantly trying to prove to my family that I will make a good nurse, and that it's something I want.
It seems generations of nurses in my family, has lead them to believe that there are too many people out there that should not be nurses.
So on my grandfather (OBM) - mother's side. I have cousins that are nurses, and when I applied they told me to do xyz and then call them to tell them what I had learned. So I called to tell them what I had learned, and thanks to that they decided that I would make a good nurse.
Today on my father's side, my grandfather (obm)'s sister came by to visit and discuss my desire to become a nurse. B"H it was not so much of a fight that I thought it would be. Because I told her about my first course, I am taking sort of a pre course, and how we had been given a scenario to see if we could figure out what was off or wrong. Luckily the manner that I was explaining it in must have impressed them.
For some reason my mother's generation is not seen as so great, and it's like they skipped to me. They keep confusing me as if I am my mother's sister and they treat her (my mother) like a child sometimes.
It's not as if I need their approval to be a nurse it's something I have wanted for a really long time.
sorry for all my ramblings, just sometimes family makes me nutz.
|
|
|
Post by malkieh on Jan 10, 2010 20:59:30 GMT -5
B"H my husband wants me to get my degree..
I am just worried about how it will affect my children.
|
|
|
Post by malkieh on Jan 7, 2010 23:45:21 GMT -5
i have been trying to pull back to see if my husband could handle doing homework with my kids.
I have found the following to happen.
My older son (age 9), sits with my younger son (age 7) and does homework with him so that they can play.
But my daughter age 11, just does not do homework if I am not there to say "did you do your homework?"
So tonight I said to my daughter please let abba help (please note abba is her stepfather), so it's not so cut and dry. My daughter has learning issues, so she takes longer than most kids. I just sit with her and she does it on her own, but my husband tries to show her "easier ways". But they are easier ways for him, not her and when I tried to explain that to him. He stormed off that this is not the type of person that he is, and he has to do it in his way.
It makes me nervous about when school starts, because I have to be focused on nursing school.
I made a call to the local high school, and they are going to try to send me girls 2 days a week. Also I am going to try to call the lubavitch school to beg for girls from them also.
We are tight on funds as we are a blended family, so I cannot hire a tutor. I am applying for scholarships left and right, so I am not sure what kind of funding I will get. I am davening for extra so that maybe I could hire a tutor once or twice week to cover the rest of the week. Time will tell, but it adds to my nervousness.
|
|
|
Post by malkieh on Jan 7, 2010 20:48:12 GMT -5
it's very interesting, but wow so much information.
I am feeling slightly overwhelmed, B"H I was able to answer most of it..
But any tips for remembering the normal Vital Signs
Also remembering the abbreviations??
|
|
|
intro
Dec 27, 2009 15:53:48 GMT -5
Post by malkieh on Dec 27, 2009 15:53:48 GMT -5
Malki, you all are Chabadniks, right? Did you know Rav Shlomo Yaffe there? We taught school together back when the high school was just starting up. I worked for Rabbi Yaffe, and he was mesade kedusha at my chasuna! Chani was pregnant so they could not walk me to the chupah. He recently moved to Boston! The high school recently got a new building and has left Agudas.
|
|
|
intro
Dec 24, 2009 22:42:35 GMT -5
Post by malkieh on Dec 24, 2009 22:42:35 GMT -5
I was in West Hartford, CT.. They are an incredible community that gave me the strength to start over as a single mother! They were supportive and incredible! They were there for me when I met my current husband, and all acted like my over protective family. He joked that he was surprised at how close the community felt, and that it was nice how they all cared! My new husband lives in california, so I am enjoying the "cold" winters
|
|
|
Post by malkieh on Dec 24, 2009 22:11:46 GMT -5
So in my excitement to share with my family, because a lot of them are nurses, I was telling them about these automated "dummies" for us to practice on in my college.
One of them is supposidly, skin feels like real skin, eyes open and close and dialate, he has a pulse and you can put an IV in, and evidently he talks!!
Another gives birth to a baby, and the baby could turn blue. It's really incredible.
So after explaining my excitement to my family member, she responded. Did you realize that my husband creates those dummies? That they are making an entire building for him to create more of them. I was completely floored!!
|
|
|
Post by malkieh on Dec 21, 2009 23:11:27 GMT -5
past three weeks I am a pin cushion.
Blood tests, vaccinations.. TB test..
Urine tests
B"H there is an end in sight, but today was my tetanus shot and ouchy!!!
|
|
|
Post by malkieh on Dec 21, 2009 11:56:31 GMT -5
also with the scrubs they only want Landau brand and they only make white scrub skirts.
|
|