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Post by malkieh on Mar 14, 2011 17:38:09 GMT -5
They are all in the middle of the week!!!
I am going to miss so much, I am so nervous!
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Post by malkieh on Feb 17, 2011 23:09:01 GMT -5
I am sitting and listening to lecture this week ( my first week back) and I am bored... I have heard the lecture before, and it's not as exciting this time around... I am trying, I really am...
At this point, I feel like just passing the course and looking for another school I am so upset with how the school did not stand up for it's students..
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Post by malkieh on Feb 3, 2011 21:53:41 GMT -5
even though I prepare, and I enjoy speaking with patients.. I am at ease when relating to them, taking their vitals and physical exam...etc etc..
I feel as though when the teacher is there, my anxiety triples.. Because it feels like they expect us to fail, and do not teach us how to succeed. Maybe it's because I had an evil instructor for my last clinical, who failed me.
But I do not want that anxiety to define me again! Any suggestions?
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Post by malkieh on Feb 3, 2011 15:57:02 GMT -5
yes I worked really hard in remediation... But in all honesty if not for the clinical instructor with something up her A**, pardon my language, I would still be in nursing school.. 4 students that had her last semester, walked out.. she only had 8 students in her group. This semester, the entire group has complained that they do not want her.
You have to teach in nursing school, she observes and criticizes.. If you do something right, you get is "fine, now leave me a lone." If you know that going in, maybe you will be ok. But atleast when I had another bad instructor she gave criticism and instruction on how to do better. Not just, "that was wrong and I am very disappointed." Also, "I am here to observe not teach, that is what the skills lab is for." Which is not true, she's our clinical instructor, it's her job to instruct.
I think she's just used to observing, because she is a preceptor at her hospital for new grads.. I would be terrified of having her for a preceptorship!
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Post by malkieh on Feb 3, 2011 15:53:30 GMT -5
one of the students I was actually afraid if she would get back in. I had her in two of my clinical sites, and she was simply not up to snuff when it came to patient safety.. We were all really scared, and she leaned heavily on most of us for help. For the sake of our group I am grateful that she did not make it through, maybe she will get another chance. But it also did not help that english was not her first language, btw there are alot in our group that english is not their first language and they had common sense for patient care.
She is extremely intelligent, and had all A's in theory.. but clinicals were scary, and that is what she did not pass in remediation.
The other student also extremely intelligent, but when push comes to crunch they also became very flaky.
You cannot be flaky, I was saying for the sake of our group we want to be strong coming back.
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Post by malkieh on Feb 3, 2011 1:42:39 GMT -5
woo hoo passed remediation!!
We started with 7 of us, and we are down to 5... The two weakest did not make it, and believe me it's a blessing in disguise!
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Post by malkieh on Feb 1, 2011 1:07:34 GMT -5
no B"H I will not have the same clinical instructor, unless I request it... There is no way that I would do something so stupid..
I mean when I contacted other nursing schools, they told me that unless I leave my old school on good terms it will be more difficult to get into another nursing school.
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Post by malkieh on Feb 1, 2011 0:13:50 GMT -5
well I realized that hashem has a plan..
I applied the same time as a friend of mine, and she got in a semester behind me. Now we will be together, and we study well together and we will beat the system!
Repeating semester, stinks but...everywhere I went they said I have to get in good with my old school...
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Post by malkieh on Jan 31, 2011 20:15:19 GMT -5
second exam was today... got an A!! and everyone made it through... Wednesday is my clinical eval...eek eek... btw I got my drive back...it feels incredible... I want to be a nurse so badly...
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Post by malkieh on Jan 30, 2011 13:57:56 GMT -5
well I made it through the first exam, two more to go... We lost two students already though One of them, we were really surprised, but I think he was studying with the wrong person. Now that person wants to join our study group, and none of us want her to because she's very distracting.
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Post by malkieh on Jan 9, 2011 2:16:16 GMT -5
thanks that is a great idea!
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Post by malkieh on Jan 8, 2011 21:02:14 GMT -5
I admit to being sad about this entire situation... How can one not be?
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Post by malkieh on Jan 7, 2011 15:53:38 GMT -5
so I started remediation this week....
I did not study as much as I wanted to, and then I had the test for remediation and I felt so stupid missing very simple things...
All and all I passed the quiz (that does not count), but I cannot seem to refocus on studying and getting back into the swing of things... Any suggestions??
I guess I was so sad with this entire thing, I gained some weight and feel really not healthy right now.. My very sweet husband, in an attempt to distract me kept taking me places and trying to cheer me up. But now that I am back in it, it's like my drive is gone.. I am so disheartened by this program and their lack of support for their students..
I heard that this same teacher, that was evil towards me and a very angry negative person, caused 4 students to just leave the program and not look back. The school does not care, because to them it's a blip and less nurses.
We have to also take this anti-anxiety course for our remediation. So they got to me, and she said "so what part of class was not fun for you, what made your anxiety so bad that you failed." I sighed and said are you sure you want to hear? she said yes... So i told her the entire thing about how this teacher constantly said she could fail us, made us feel lower than low.. told me to become a crossing guard, and basically made us feel like nothings... How I cried after clinicals, because I worked really hard and was exhausted after patient care.. Because we still have to do the CNA work, and our passing meds, research etc..
The anxiety teacher was upset that the school did not do anything, I said oh they did speak to her, and she would be nice for 1/2 the day and then lecture us at the end that she is the teacher and she decides who passes and who fails not the head teacher...
After the class the anxiety teacher promised me she would talk to the faculty about controling these new teachers, and how this is unacceptable...
Honestly I do not believe her. HOw do I get over it?? How do I get my drive back?
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Post by malkieh on Dec 9, 2010 3:00:01 GMT -5
well options B & C have not gotten back to me as to if these are even options.... I left messages, and sent emails and no response as of yet.
So for now I am doing option A until I hear otherwise...
I have an appt for Jan 6th for one of the other options...
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Post by malkieh on Dec 7, 2010 16:45:42 GMT -5
Malki, I honestly wouldn't put the family vacation plans ahead of your education. This is ONE vacation, there will be others, and you can make it up to them in other ways. The vacation is a short-term consideration while finishing your education is long-term. The question to consider though is whether this is the best school for you or whether one of the other options might be a better educational fit, which I couldnt' comment on without knowing more details. This is what my husband is saying... That my current school is so negative, so unsupportive of it's students. It is also an associate degree, not bachelors... so he feels like I am killing myself over an associate degree. B. The second choice is a bachelors degree in health science, and that same college has a program where you can go from a basic bachelors to a bachelor/masters in nursing. yes it will be a couple of years longer, but thanks to the economy Associate degree graduates are not really finding jobs and I am going to have to go on for my bachelors anyway. C. I just got through to the third option of a bachelors program alone.. I missed the deadline for one of the programs (december 1st), the second one has a deadline of Feb 2nd, and even then they only accept 10 transfer students a year! This school also has a bachelors program for a second degree in nursing, so I could apply there also once my basic bachelors is done.
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