Post by malkieh on Jun 15, 2011 21:14:09 GMT -5
Ever since the instance of being failed by the evil instructor, and then hearing from the new instructor that she could not see a reason why I was failed.. I have really felt numb.
I used to be empathetic and understanding and listen to people's kfetches and moans. I used to really care.
But these days I just honestly have not tollerance for silliness and I find myself upset and not understanding.
For instance, the other day we went to this event. It was a really nice event and for the most part I really enjoyed it, but part of the event was this sort of auction where they draw cards out. At first the MC was really funny and entertaining, but towards the end of the evening (around 10 pm). I just started getting irritated with his attempts to elongate the evening, I mean I wanted to go home and spend time with my children. We had a great table of women the people were nice and normal, but the stupid quips he made that were supposed to be funny. The first hour I was ok with it, but by hour number 2.5 I was really sick of him elongating the evening. I would have just left, but a friend of mine needed my husband and I to walk her to her car because she came alone. She did not want to leave as of that moment.
Then today, after my wonderful fit test... blah
One of my fellow students came up to me, she looked sad. So I asked are you ok? She said, "yeah but I walked in on my bf having s@x with another girl and she was on top." I am not sure why she said the extra part, but I just responded "Oh, I am so sorry but at least you found out who he was before you became serious." and I hugged her. She said to me later something to the effect of, "you do not know how to deal with people when they are upset do you?"
Maybe I came across as not emotional about her issue?
I admit I did not go like oh sweetie are you ok??
I just feel like the entire situation that I went through has drained me, and I am still feeling numb.. How do I snap out of it?? I want to get back to caring, I hate this feeling...
I used to be empathetic and understanding and listen to people's kfetches and moans. I used to really care.
But these days I just honestly have not tollerance for silliness and I find myself upset and not understanding.
For instance, the other day we went to this event. It was a really nice event and for the most part I really enjoyed it, but part of the event was this sort of auction where they draw cards out. At first the MC was really funny and entertaining, but towards the end of the evening (around 10 pm). I just started getting irritated with his attempts to elongate the evening, I mean I wanted to go home and spend time with my children. We had a great table of women the people were nice and normal, but the stupid quips he made that were supposed to be funny. The first hour I was ok with it, but by hour number 2.5 I was really sick of him elongating the evening. I would have just left, but a friend of mine needed my husband and I to walk her to her car because she came alone. She did not want to leave as of that moment.
Then today, after my wonderful fit test... blah
One of my fellow students came up to me, she looked sad. So I asked are you ok? She said, "yeah but I walked in on my bf having s@x with another girl and she was on top." I am not sure why she said the extra part, but I just responded "Oh, I am so sorry but at least you found out who he was before you became serious." and I hugged her. She said to me later something to the effect of, "you do not know how to deal with people when they are upset do you?"
Maybe I came across as not emotional about her issue?
I admit I did not go like oh sweetie are you ok??
I just feel like the entire situation that I went through has drained me, and I am still feeling numb.. How do I snap out of it?? I want to get back to caring, I hate this feeling...