Post by psyched on Mar 14, 2011 15:06:27 GMT -5
I'm feeling stressed out about this today. I have five weeks left of maternity leave (well, five weeks and two days) and I'm still pregnant. I have been working at this company for about 10 months and they made sure to let me know several times that since I haven't been with them a year, they do NOT have to give me maternity and/or guarantee me my job back for after leave but they will, out of the utter kindness of their hearts. They offered me a 6 week leave.
I started my leave on wednesday bec I was up half of tues night with strong contractions and even though they stopped by morning, I didn't feel well enough to keep working. Just some background: I do homecare and it's a 1 1/2 hour commute each way (3 hrs total) and the function of my job is that I'm walking a LOT throughout the day (think, miles) with a heavy bag which contains a laptop. But here I am, no sign of labor in sight and I'm very aware of the ticking clock of work. At this point even if I deliver on wednesday that will still have be back traipsing around for miles in just 5 weeks- that doesn't seem normal or doable to me.
I AM looking for another job and have started sending my resume around as in general, I find the work very draining, but I'm wondering if there's any way around this or if anyone has any tips for me to at least not feel so nervous and stressed about it. I just want to relax and enjoy this birth and new baby be'h, without this horrible pressure over my head.
I am trying to remember that Hashem is in charge, but I would love any other insight or support.
I started my leave on wednesday bec I was up half of tues night with strong contractions and even though they stopped by morning, I didn't feel well enough to keep working. Just some background: I do homecare and it's a 1 1/2 hour commute each way (3 hrs total) and the function of my job is that I'm walking a LOT throughout the day (think, miles) with a heavy bag which contains a laptop. But here I am, no sign of labor in sight and I'm very aware of the ticking clock of work. At this point even if I deliver on wednesday that will still have be back traipsing around for miles in just 5 weeks- that doesn't seem normal or doable to me.
I AM looking for another job and have started sending my resume around as in general, I find the work very draining, but I'm wondering if there's any way around this or if anyone has any tips for me to at least not feel so nervous and stressed about it. I just want to relax and enjoy this birth and new baby be'h, without this horrible pressure over my head.
I am trying to remember that Hashem is in charge, but I would love any other insight or support.
My husband is unbelievably supportive of all this. I'm concerned bec I am our primary source of income, but the truth is, this position has been very draining for all of us (myself, my husband, and the kids) maybe Hashem is nudging me to find something else.