Post by abby on Jan 17, 2011 14:46:57 GMT -5
help please!
my work just called - they want to know if i want to train as a supervisor. what?!
ok - i am one year out of school and working at my first job in the same facility for all of 8 months. i am still not 100% successful with catheterization, i just three weeks ago did my first ever (and so far only) IM injection, i am still calling my supervisors to observe me doing various other procedures. i am so busy i mostly have not had time to practice assessment - and that's mostly the supervisor's job anyway. and every day i find that i have the most bizarre, obscure (yet important) things to ask. of course i have learned so much since i began. but to be in charge of the whole building?! are they totally meshuggeh?!
i think actually it is from desperation - a number of people have just quit and i think they just don't have anyone else to do it. i have heard over and over about new nurses being thrown right in to these shark-infested waters and in these stories they always seem to be able to fight their ways up to the surface. but that doesn't diminish the scariness... incidentally this offer comes at a time when i am actively looking for another job. i DO want to train as an RN - because i AM one. until now i am doing LPN work - this is fine, but i'm ready to move on (and also, nights are killing me). i dream that now that i've assimilated some of the practical skills of nursing hospitals might be more likely to hire me, even given my shabbos caveat. so i have been applying to hospital jobs - nice local quiet med-surg floors. in some ways i think that supervising would be similar to one of these jobs but in others i know that it's not at all. the biggest difference of course is that the supervisor is the end of the line - she's the one everyone else asks. even if we were to pretend that my clinical and assessment skills were what they should be, i am not sure i'm up for that - i'm still having some difficulty being in charge of the CNAs, forget about nurses who are decades older than me and have decades more experience. i'm sure that the youngest RN currently supervising is at least 10 years older than i am. but as a floor nurse in a hospital, you are not in such a position, and there is always someone else to ask.
but actually - i could use the money - for my loans and for aliyah, which i hope i hope i hope i hope i hope i hope will be in september. at least this is how i am planning. tomorrow i have an appointment in new york with nefesh b'nefesh... of course supervisors are paid significantly more than floor nurses. and of course this matters not at all if it's a job that you're not going to be competent in/capable of doing.
in short, i am tempted, even though i think simultaneously that it's totally ridiculous. i am not sure how much training they would give me, and i'm not sure about my ability to be a leader even assuming i could quickly become competent in the clinical aspects of the job. i am also scared to be in charge of medically fragile people, to possibly make a mistake and to have no one to turn to to help me fix it. but i recognize that a nurse's job is always a little scary, and that growth of all kinds can come only with taking some risks. i also have strong professional and practical incentives.
what do you think? is accepting as ridiculous a thing to do as i suspect it is? or do you think it's an appropriate risk to take? help please...
my work just called - they want to know if i want to train as a supervisor. what?!
ok - i am one year out of school and working at my first job in the same facility for all of 8 months. i am still not 100% successful with catheterization, i just three weeks ago did my first ever (and so far only) IM injection, i am still calling my supervisors to observe me doing various other procedures. i am so busy i mostly have not had time to practice assessment - and that's mostly the supervisor's job anyway. and every day i find that i have the most bizarre, obscure (yet important) things to ask. of course i have learned so much since i began. but to be in charge of the whole building?! are they totally meshuggeh?!
i think actually it is from desperation - a number of people have just quit and i think they just don't have anyone else to do it. i have heard over and over about new nurses being thrown right in to these shark-infested waters and in these stories they always seem to be able to fight their ways up to the surface. but that doesn't diminish the scariness... incidentally this offer comes at a time when i am actively looking for another job. i DO want to train as an RN - because i AM one. until now i am doing LPN work - this is fine, but i'm ready to move on (and also, nights are killing me). i dream that now that i've assimilated some of the practical skills of nursing hospitals might be more likely to hire me, even given my shabbos caveat. so i have been applying to hospital jobs - nice local quiet med-surg floors. in some ways i think that supervising would be similar to one of these jobs but in others i know that it's not at all. the biggest difference of course is that the supervisor is the end of the line - she's the one everyone else asks. even if we were to pretend that my clinical and assessment skills were what they should be, i am not sure i'm up for that - i'm still having some difficulty being in charge of the CNAs, forget about nurses who are decades older than me and have decades more experience. i'm sure that the youngest RN currently supervising is at least 10 years older than i am. but as a floor nurse in a hospital, you are not in such a position, and there is always someone else to ask.
but actually - i could use the money - for my loans and for aliyah, which i hope i hope i hope i hope i hope i hope will be in september. at least this is how i am planning. tomorrow i have an appointment in new york with nefesh b'nefesh... of course supervisors are paid significantly more than floor nurses. and of course this matters not at all if it's a job that you're not going to be competent in/capable of doing.
in short, i am tempted, even though i think simultaneously that it's totally ridiculous. i am not sure how much training they would give me, and i'm not sure about my ability to be a leader even assuming i could quickly become competent in the clinical aspects of the job. i am also scared to be in charge of medically fragile people, to possibly make a mistake and to have no one to turn to to help me fix it. but i recognize that a nurse's job is always a little scary, and that growth of all kinds can come only with taking some risks. i also have strong professional and practical incentives.
what do you think? is accepting as ridiculous a thing to do as i suspect it is? or do you think it's an appropriate risk to take? help please...
