Post by psyched on Nov 17, 2009 11:41:19 GMT -5
Some of you already know about my job dilemmas,...
I'm so torn. This has been on my mind for days.
Some background:
I work in a psych facility as a RN. I don't love it at all. It's very low class teens, I have to listen to horrible vulgarity all day. Fights break out, it's dangerous at times, and be'h if I become pg in the future, this would be a dangerous job to do.
I am currently obtaining my DONA doula certification. I feel like I've found my calling. I absolutely love supporting Jewish women in labor, and get so much out of it. I've been taking some births on slowly, and am able to do it because I only work 3 days/week at my current job.
A position came up for me a while ago in a more jewish setting, also psych. It would have been 3 12 hour shifts/week, and was about 45 min away. I decided against it, as I wouldn't see my children for several days at a time.
Now a new job has come up- desk job for RNs. 5 days a week, 8 hour days. 35 min commute. I will see my children for one hour in the morning, and about 1 1/2 hours in the afternoon. The idea of this makes me so sad. I'm also afraid I'll be completely stressed out, and have no time to do what I have to do around the house. ALSO, I prob won't be able to really persu the doula work, as I'll be working 5 days/week.
It's hard to find positions these days, I'm lucky that these 2 have come up. I feel guilty letting them go, as I feel I "can't be too picky" But is it the right thing to do if I'll hardly be with my children, and I won't be able to do what I REALLY love anymore? (the labor coaching)
Financially, we're juggling but okay right now. With the extra money a full time position will bring, we'll be better off. BUT maybe if I do some extra labor coaching each month, that extra income can pull us through as well.
Sorry so long. Does anyone have any insight?
I'm so torn. This has been on my mind for days.
Some background:
I work in a psych facility as a RN. I don't love it at all. It's very low class teens, I have to listen to horrible vulgarity all day. Fights break out, it's dangerous at times, and be'h if I become pg in the future, this would be a dangerous job to do.
I am currently obtaining my DONA doula certification. I feel like I've found my calling. I absolutely love supporting Jewish women in labor, and get so much out of it. I've been taking some births on slowly, and am able to do it because I only work 3 days/week at my current job.
A position came up for me a while ago in a more jewish setting, also psych. It would have been 3 12 hour shifts/week, and was about 45 min away. I decided against it, as I wouldn't see my children for several days at a time.
Now a new job has come up- desk job for RNs. 5 days a week, 8 hour days. 35 min commute. I will see my children for one hour in the morning, and about 1 1/2 hours in the afternoon. The idea of this makes me so sad. I'm also afraid I'll be completely stressed out, and have no time to do what I have to do around the house. ALSO, I prob won't be able to really persu the doula work, as I'll be working 5 days/week.
It's hard to find positions these days, I'm lucky that these 2 have come up. I feel guilty letting them go, as I feel I "can't be too picky" But is it the right thing to do if I'll hardly be with my children, and I won't be able to do what I REALLY love anymore? (the labor coaching)
Financially, we're juggling but okay right now. With the extra money a full time position will bring, we'll be better off. BUT maybe if I do some extra labor coaching each month, that extra income can pull us through as well.
Sorry so long. Does anyone have any insight?
