I'm kind of going through a down period right now.
If anyone remembers following my posts from about a year ago, I graduated from nursing school and couldn't find work for 6 months, so I decided to go to grad school to be a pediatric nurse practitioner. Now I'm more than halfway through the program but I'm starting to get worried about the job prospects for PNPs when I'm done. I just can't face going through the same thing again.
This program is very difficult and this semester is hardest of all, mainly because I need to do 240 clinical hours, plus write a million papers and do a zillion projects, and I have a house full of kids ka"H and pesach is coming. Trying to do it all is wearing me down. And this uncertainty and doubt about what awaits me when I'm finished is making it harder and harder for me to put forth the effort. I guess I could find regular nursing work when I'm done, but for that I don't need to go through grad school. I won't drop out though because I finish what I start.
I'm doing pretty well in school so far... had a 4.0 going into this semester (had our first test of the spring semester today, we'll see how I did). It doesn't seem that important though to do well in school, because when I finished nursing school grades made absolutely no difference in who got hired or not. I feel like this is all such a sham... Like the work and effort you put forth are not worthwhile.
Do you think Hakadosh Baruch Hu cant help you find a job? Daven and do your Hishtadlus., In the meantime, Volunteer or extern at a place you would like to work and show them that you are worth hiring. I know things are hard now, but they arent impossible. I realize you are busy this semester and am proud of your work, your efforts etc. Perhaps you didnt find a job so that you would be encouraged to do this PNP program. Had you found a job you might not have been encouraged to continue your education and this is the direction that Hashem wants for you.... Dont worry, there are good things in store for you!! It is rough with all your home responsibilities, but Gam Zeh Ya'avor. Your kids will certainly respect your efforts, try not to show them your doubts or negative thoughts, its important for them to see you positive about your education and efforts. Shabbat Shalom!
In addition, there are most certainly PNP jobs out there. They may not be where you first think of living. You may have to be willing to look further afield.
You also may be able to create a job. If you approach some pediatrics and family practice offices, you might find you can create interest. I know all around the country Family Practice docs are simply overwhelmed. They might welcome the opportunity to have someone take care of part of the burden.