Good for you! Has the anxiety lessened? Try picturing everything going well in your mind and deep breathing. Picture yourself as the epitome of the best nurse and keep that picture forward in your mind. Do NOT picture yourself as nervous or incompetent. And, remember that the patient needs you. They are sick and they are not nurses, and your instructor will not let anything bad happen.
Actually this past semester I had a kind of eye opening experience..
The nurses at this particular hospital are over whelmed and not paid well. I had a patient that was very ill and kept going off the floor for tests to figure out what was going on.
My instructor was on my butt to check his vital signs every time he came back to the floor.
One time she came in, "check his vital signs, now!" He had just gotten to the room with transport, and she was really getting on my nerves. I turned around and I looked at her and said very firmly not disrespectfully, "my priority is getting my patient safely back in bed with his oxygen attached because he is a trache patient and the RT told me to attach it asap. My next is his safety then restarting his IV because that is his only form of nutrition at this moment, and reattaching his EKG monitor, and I have a VS machine (i pointed to the machine) in the room, so that once these things are done I will take his vital signs."
She nodded and said, "very good glad to see you have it under control." And walked away.
it was nerve wracking, but also empowering! After doing everything I was supposed to do, I walked out of the room shaking. The transport people came back to take my patient to another test and I had to turn around and assist them to transfer him (bedbound). After they were off the floor again, one of the other students came up to me, and touched my shoulder and asked if I was ok. I told her what happened, and she smiled and said "sounds like u were a real nurse today." It really felt incredible.